Sunday, December 19, 2010

Settling in to the idea of the change,..the respite took a number of hours,...but I've realized that I've already breathed out a a good way. I know that you who have had a child of yours in rehab/treatment, or sadly, even in jail,...can relate to what I mean in feeling that you're having some type of break....some peace of mind. D texted me while I was out Christmas shopping this afternoon,...that he'd arrived, was met by someone at the airport, from where he's going for treatment. After that, I haven't heard a word,...I know that he has to give them his phone and they'll put it in a safe for him. Hopefully, it's all going well. I finished shopping, went and got some food for dinner,.....came into the house and realized that I'm now already feeling a bit lighter....just kind of free. My husband jokingly said...."look at me....putting my wallet & keys right here" (in a basket on top of the 'frig. where he always used to put them)....meaning, not hiding them. I know, that is a commentary on a way to live that is pathetic and that no one should be an adaptation to addiction...oh how I know. Anyway, for today, I am very thankful....that D decided to go to treatment(again) and knows how much he needs help. Believe me, if you knew'd know how much he wouldn't be doing this unless HE wanted to. We realize oh too well how much this is a very small part of his recovery and even more so,'s the "easy" part, being clean and working on recovery in a structured environment. But for now, I am grateful for the break for us, and continue to pray for him to "get it" this time,...enough to make his recovery his number one priority.


  1. That's funny I read your last post and was going to comment and say: Breath.. just breath.
    I am really happy for you all. It does feel so much lighter.. and know he's safe and in a controlled place.. so you can sit back and relax for awhile. Enjoy your Holiday! I am happy for all of you..

  2. thank you Kelly, we will have a great holiday...going up to see our extended family...about 8 to 9 hr.s away by car, something we haven't done for a long time :)

  3. Putting my keys and wallet right here!!! I CAN SO RELATE. I think I said the same thing.

    My fingers are crossed for you and wishing you all the best.

  4. Enjoy your trip to see deserve it. Christmas is time for a new beginning; and hopefully this time D will take the steps that he needs to in order to get and stay clean and work on moving his life forward.

    This break is definitely a blessing for you.

  5. Glad you are breathing easier! I can also relate to that feeling of leaving my purse and keys out in plain site, it felt so weird.

    I like what Kev's attorney says, she says she's on "Team Keven". I am on "Team D" with you and sitting on the sidelines hoping that this is "it" for him. Its hard to get our hopes up too high, yet we can't lose hope because this very well could be "it"!

  6. Wonderful news, teach. I just now got a chance to catch up with your blog. I know that you will take advantage of the peaceful days ahead. I keep you and your family in my prayers, hoping that your son will find the right path and continue on it, one day at a time. Merry Christmas.