Thursday, February 24, 2011
scared/ sad....
oh damn,...we went to see the lawyer today,...finally, about the hearing tomorrow. The lawyer thinks it's extremely likely that this will go further to a trial,...and it's so serious, and to think a jury will decide this...... D is doing SO well now,....ah....it's just so hard to not know what will happen and why now ?. I know, ...the past follows him. I'm just sick thinking about it all,...and I feel like my heart hurts. This is all so tough.
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I know how difficult things such as this are when our addicts seem to be doing well. But, part of real recovery is being able to live life on life's terms. Addicts all seem to learn this one the hardest way. Keeping you and your son in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Kristi,...and right you are.
ReplyDeleteThe intensity of your emotions ebb and flow and when we build up that insane anxiety over our troubled children, we really need to see it as a warning sign... and find some release and peace and calm....I say this to myself as well, for I know the worry can keep me awake all night. I pray that you can somewhat compartmentalize this so that you are able to be nurtured through a walk, prayer, music, a hug, a good meal...know that God is the one "on call 24-7" and you can not be. Allow yourself to breath deep and not stare off that cliff into the dark abyss of hopelessness and despair. Claim the promises of God. I personally put up scripture around my home, especially when I feel my faith is very small. God says, "Fear not for I am with you". We are walking this journey with you. I am praying for you and D.
ReplyDeleteI sometimes think that God gives them these roadblocks when they seem to be doing well, to help them, and us, face challenges while clean...to demonstrate to themselves they can handle it! Don't assume the worst, which is of course, what we all do. You remain in my thoughts and my prayers.
ReplyDeleteThank you all, especially for your prayers, as well as the encouragement. Yes,Tori, he does have to handle this challenge...and although he was shook up yesterday and kind of drained emotionally, he left on the plane back to Florida with a good attitude.
ReplyDeleteDeirdre, I am going to do at least one of those things you suggested to nurture myself, and I love your idea of putting a bunch of scriptural verses around the house, and am going to do that today. I have my favorite one on the frig.,...the same one as on your blog under your son's photo.
Thank you all for your comments.
Hope everything went well in court! I have been thinking about you...
ReplyDeleteI am glad your son is in a good place, it sounds like he really is doing well. I am realizing that there is a little more sympathy for addicts and both Judges we had were very easy on Blake considering. When he tests dirty he will go to jail but he should have gotten a 2 year minimum sentence and he didn't get any jail time. I can't remember why D is going to Court but keep faith it just might work out great for him - well better than you are thinking. Attorneys are always such downers. Blake's had me scared to Death because of all the charges B had and they were a lot and bad and it worked out. I love all the responses you got. I appreciate your support when I write - I am praying for you and D and your family.
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